Is it the endless struggle

Is it an endless struggle or is there light at the end of the tunnel? Most days I know there will be light, I don't even question it, and then there are days like today.  Today seems dark and hopeless.  I want to crawl out of my own skin, find a deep dark hole and bury myself.  When everything is just too much and I can't seem to catch my breath.  Behind my best poker face I am screaming HELP!!! All around me there are people who will never know the depth of what I feel....but God knows. It sounds so cliche but its the truth.  He sees my tears and he hears my inner screams.  He's seen my heart break and picked up the pieces.